Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Back up, deep breath, slow down and...

...remember why you're doing this.

After a hard evening of writing and a sleepless night this is what I've come up with.

I'm writing because I love it. I'm writing stories for my 3 kids. I'm writing novels for my characters (yes, they are real people to me, deal with it.) I'm writing because when it's good feels better than taking a hot bath on a cold evening while sipping excellent wine or watching a movie curled up with my husband or even opening my battered copy of "Pride and Prejudice" and entering a world of beauty and grace for the 20000th time.

Sera and Asher's story came to me practically whole, I've only made a few adjustments along the way. 25000 words in, and I can still see their path, I just haven't figured out how to egt them over the hurdles.

I have to decide where to go from here. It's up to me and me alone how the story of writing the story will go. It's up to me to hang onto the joy despite the frustration. It's up to me to make their story as beautiful on the page as it is in my mind. No one can write this for me.

I realize now that it's up to me to decide it's worth writing.
I realize now that it's up to me to decide if I'm worthy of writing it.

So tonight, when the Thing 1 and Thing 2 are in bed and Thing 3 is sleeping in my husband's arms (she's only 3 months old, after all) I will write. I will write what I can, to the best of my ability, and leave my insecurity behind.

Deep breath, slow down, remember why I'm doing this, dive in.


  1. Great, great post! Such a great reminder to every writer, especially me as I dive into revisions in a little bit.

  2. Great post, Heather.

    My blog today is about a similar topic. I think you have to love writing and want to do it for the sake of the joy it brings you. Otherwise it would drive you crazy.
    Glad to hear you unraveled your plot problems!

    Happy writing.


  3. Thanks ladies! I've spent almost as much time these pst few days thinking about writing as I have actually doing any writing!

    Although it was painful, I'm glad I went through a period of intense (!) self-doubt. It makes me feel better to have come out the other side!

    Writing can be such a lonely task, I feel very blessed to have found other writers who are on different stages of the same journey! Thank you for being here!